What do you do?

I think nobody read this blog, I hardly ever use it. The following is probably just your everyday marriage complaint and pain. You are forewarned; however, if you do continue on, please leave a suggestion.

I seem to have lost my communication ability with my husband. Not that we don't talk, it's that when we talked about anything serious these days, I feel wronged, or being picked on, and unable to speak without crying. Then it just go downhill from there because it's really difficult to present a logical argument while sobbing not to mention making someone else understand.

We are at a place where I think he is so stubborn about his thinking that, although he tries, but still can seem to understand where am I coming from. And I'm just too emotional, we both agree on that, too tired to talk anymore. And it just run the viscious cycle.

I think there are only two ways of solving the problem. One, throw in the towel and call it quit. Two, just accept each other as is, no matter how far we are from who we were ten years ago.

But we can't even agree on that. He doesn't want to quit, and he keep on talking about what we were like, what we agreed upon ten years ago. God! I'm willing to admit I'm not the person I was ten years ago! But can't a person change? Or, can a person will herself not to change? I don't think I have the power to control that. BTW, I think I changed because of the myriad little requests that my spouse made during our ten year marriage. I've changed so much that I don't recognized myself anymore! And then, I'm accused of not being the person I used to be. Fine. I practically demand that we end this union because I'm not holding up my end of the deal, and he refused, repeatedly. Can someone tell me what going on inside men's, or may just this man's, mind?

What do one do? Stick it out because it's just a phase that every couple go through? Stick it out because we can just go on like this for the rest of our lives? Insist on going separate ways?

I seem to be having major problem with blogger. Here is my first BSJ. Made with various left over yarn of mine, or given to me. The yellow stripe is particularly memorable, it's from my first knitting project--a baby blanket for my first born. This baby entered elementary school this year. She also successfully fold the knitted piece into the jacket on the first try.

My first ever everything by myself woven shawl. I used mohair yarn, recycled from a almost finished sweater given to me by a casual friend. Though mohair is hellish to frog, I did frog, reskein, wash and reball the sweater. the whole process must have taken me at least over a year. But finally, it's off the loom! I think I'm giving the shawl to my mother in law, who loves pink and uses shawl.

First amigurumi FO(from that book)!

The crochet part is much easier than I expected, but putting the parts together turn out to be much hardet than I thought. One of the ears were twisted, the body/head connection feel really flimsy, the hands and feet were easier, I guess I got the hang of it by the time I got there. But the tail were too low, Amy kept on insisting the bunny has three legs!

Coming up next in the amigurumi department is a pink chihuahua for Amy. But I can't get the February baby sweater of Knitter's Almanac off my mind. Only I don't have a baby that small to knit for anymore. Need to check out how to enlarge it for Amy or Kate. They could use a new sweater in the coming winter. Let's just see if I'll get to that.

Mother in law came by day before yesterday. Saw the still unattached parts of the bunny and said, since I like to knit so much, she's giving me her yarn to knit her a sweater. Duh, mom, the waiting time is really going to be very long. She said that's okay, since she started the thing 20 years ago!

EZ Ganomy Hat

Hi, I just joined Zimmermania knit-along. This is my first, I'm so excited. The way I feel about EZ's designs is that they never look very interesting in the book(I do enjoy reading the books, though), however, once the thing is knit up, it's very attractive. This is why this blog interests me so much!

Well, I got encouraged and knit my first Ganomy hat. This project busted my yarn diet, but I'm happy with the result. Can anyone tell me, am I suppose to have all those angles? Other people's Ganomy look very fluid to me.

When I started, I knew my gauge is off. But I don't like the gauge the pattern said and it's too warm for this weather, anyway. So, I add 16 st to the whole hat and came out right.